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Why I Don’t Write About Astrology Much Anymore
Not that anyone’s been begging me to blog more, but as I read the occasional astrology blog post outside of Sasstrology, I realize that it’s not that I don’t believe in astrology - because I do - but that I just don’t have the curiosity anymore. Sure, right now I could be looking at Tiger Wood’s chart, but I just don’t care enough.
Frankly, I don’t care to become a better astrologer anymore, and I don’t feel motivated to prove my worth to the reading public. I labored for years, over the course of three astrology blogs, to earn the respect of my peers (or at least those peers whom I value).
Right now, all I care about is making enough money to support my family. I have chosen to pursue the path of self-employment, after having acknowledged to myself that I do not like working at a traditional job. (Never mind that right now I’m working even harder than I did at any job, for a much smaller salary; when I do make a decent living, I will know that I did it by working my ass off on something that I genuinely care about, using my skills and talents.)
I have accepted that part of my karma is that I am not a client-attracting magnet of an astrological counselor. I believe I “give good reading,” but I never bring in enough income from consultations to ever think it could be a significant source of income. Rather, I am a publisher and editor.
Nearly a whole Jupiter cycle before I even started studying astrology, I was working on my high school literary magazine. And then in college I saved a floundering second-rate literary mag as editor-in-chief, managing to publish one issue before I graduated. After I dropped out of my first Phd program, I strongly considered working in San Francisco media, only to be discouraged by how difficult it was to even get a proofreading job.
The point being that this is something I believe I do well, and that it was my first passion. (Along with music, but I quickly accepted that the life of a touring jazz pianist is not for me.)
So there it is. Maybe I just have my head below the water, and once I’m no longer in survival mode, I’ll feel driven to analyze charts again. But I make no promises!
